The Collector

Do not worry if you think that you see me
Because I might not be there to see you
I have an appointment with every living being
And they don’t know when that is

It could be when they are truly innocent
It could be when they fear death’s presence
For me, I don’t care when it happens
Because time for me doesn’t matter at all

People say that they have seen glimpses of me
When they are near death but ultimately live
They go crazy according to human beings
Because they cannot fathom what they have seen

I am no angel, but I am no demon either
I do know both and they cower in fear from me
I am the one that can go to heaven or hell
And cause the cosmos to shake in fear

For all non-mortals I am known as Neter
The mortals don’t even know about me
I am the one that harvests the Ka, Ba & Akh
Or in other words, the souls of human beings

There is only one promise that I can make
That your soul is delivered where it should
It does not matter to me in the least
Whether that is to your God or to your Devil

I have one thing to do and that is collect
Collect those souls for all of the known Gods
Whether it is delivered to your heaven or hell
Know that you will be there for eternity

My Black Days

Life is one of those things you cannot plan
You think you know what is going to happen
And something else comes to pass
I knew how my life was going to play out
Whom I was going to marry, how many kids
But now I know that will not come to pass

The sun can send it’s warmest rays
The birds can sing their merry songs
My family can celebrate my life
My friends can drag me out on the town
And my coworkers can involve me in things
But none of that can penetrate my cold heart

I remember the first time I saw you
And the awkward situation we found ourselves in
I close my eyes and see the perfect smile
That you always had when you were happy
I think back to when you said you loved me
I thought that I ruled the world

But now I don’t pretend to rule anything
Everyday is a fight for my sanity
All I see for my future is a dark place
That holds enemies and challenges
That will eliminate my will to live
And will bring my miserable existence to an end

God abandoned me on that fateful day
That he took you away from me
And while I cannot commit suicide
It doesn’t mean that I can live with myself
The sooner that I die, the better it is
Because then we can be together again

Suckered Into Thinking Us

I have figured out that my life is a lie
All this time I thought that we were a team
Instead this has been a way for you to survive
And not live in the real and cruel world

I told you that I would give my life for you
In response you tried to push me out of your life
You told me that you were a bad person
Determined to show me exactly how bad

So everything became about what you wanted
Spending what we didn’t have and blaming me
When the bills came due and we had no money
You also decided that you could do anything you wanted

That anything became about hurting me
Your plan was simple and had two ways to do it
The first was to turn our children against me
The second was to tear out my heart

I trusted you to work out our problems
But apparently I wasn’t man enough for that
You did find a man that is good enough for you
As least for this moment in time

I hope nothing but the best for you two
But I know that I will never recover from this
Standing in the living room we once shared
I realize that the joke has always been on me

You are walking up the driveway to get your things
It is now or never time for me
I hope whenever I cross you mind in the future
That you hear the same final sound that I heard

BANG!

Caught In A Moment

Where do I start in describing what you mean to me?
Do I mention the feeling of camaraderie first?
Or do I mention the feeling of hope that you give to me?
Maybe the soul I fell in love with should be what I mention.

I always feel important when I am with you.
I want you to get everything that I think you deserve.
Our two hearts joined makes us stronger.
We become better when we are together.

I love the nights that we enjoy each other's company
The nights that you aren't here are insufferable.
Every day I count the minutes until I get to see you
And seeing you smile is what drives me forward.

I have always put your wants and needs first
No matter the cost to my reputation or well being
You are the most important thing in my life
And I try to live up to your expectations

So why have you forsaken me and my love?
To break my heart and laugh like it is no big deal
To throw everything that I have done for you
Into the garbage like yesterday's trash

I gave up everything to make us work
Family, friends, career, all gone for you
I committed act of disloyalty and disobedience
To ensure you received what you wanted

So now I hope you are happy where you are
Living with a person who just uses you for their pleasure
Do you think love is getting abused by them?
Or is it the rape that makes you feel valued?

I am broken, nothing matters to me anymore
I am stuck in a moment of time and can't get out
But here I will wait, just to see your face
Because I have faith that you will come back for me

And when that happens, everything will be fine again
My sin of human frailty will be out in the open
You can forgive me and make things the way they should be
All you must do is keep my love in your heart.